Today, as a treat to myself, I rented a movie to watch during the day while the kids were at school. Ever since yesterday I kept seeing in my mind the cover of the movie “The Shack”. I love the book and the movie equally….but I know it’s a commitment to watch something that I know will provoke a myriad of strong emotions. Still, I went to redbox and checked it out. The movie had barely begun when I began to have my own encounter with God…..
I am reminded that God is always eager to heal us. We only need to be willing.
For healing to come, we often must tear off the band-aid of “I’m fine” or “I’ve already dealt with that” or “I’ve already forgiven”……or whatever your default of stiff arming the Lord’s tender arm of healing away happens to be.
In a flash I saw several moments of severe wounding that have occurred in my life, and God reminded me that the only way that I was able to receive His healing there was because I made myself willing and vulnerable to revisit each instance and let Him navigate me through it.
We often must return to the “scene of the crime”. If we cannot physically return, then rest easy….God can return you there in your heart. The origin moment of the pain. Look it straight in the eyes. Invite God into that place. Ask Him to speak/show you the truth.
His Truth. The ultimate Truth.
In my childhood I had a moment where sin was committed against me and it was so hard for me to process that I blocked it out. But the Father, in His loving kindness, knew it was hindering me from growing and living life to the full…..so He revealed it to me when the time was right. And He also walked me through forgiveness and healing.
He never reveals a wounding to us without the intent of bringing full closure and restoration to it. The only problem is that some of us choose to stay in the wounded place instead of moving into what’s on the other side of the pain.
I KNOW what’s on the other side……Jesus. Friend, I promise, it’s worth it to move forward in Him.
Another moment of wounding happened within a church body I used to be a part of. After a meeting with the pastor, he (for reasons I still don’t understand) began lying about our conversation and as a result I lost, not only my church home, but a whole group of friends who chose to believe him without even coming to me and asking for my side. I swore I would never return to that place. My heart grew cold to it. Then my husband asked me to return to it during one of our visits home. He was also hurt there, but he loved my parents so much that he wanted us to go to church with them anyway. We went, and while sitting in my seat there I had a vision. I saw a chalk outline on the concrete. Just like what you see when the police come across a murder on T.V., and God spoke to me that I was returning to the scene of the crime. I knew it was significant, but I still felt no closure. It wasn’t until the next time we visited, at least a year later, that I saw the circle become complete. As I stood worshiping there, I began to sing out in my fullest voice, focused solely on my Great God. All of the sudden I saw myself and what looked like a backpack on my back. Then in an instance I saw a giant set of wings come breaking out of the backpack. I could literally feel the wings flapping back and forth on my back. I had been set free! I have soared in that freedom ever since…..I even had the opportunity to sing with their worship team once……an even greater full circle moment.
God is so very good.
And yet another healing moment occurred when God healed my father wounds. I have written about that in the past……But it was another time when I had to return and look straight at my pain in order to receive His full healing. This moment not only brought a great reconciliation to my relationship with my earthly father, but also paved the way for me to truly encounter Father God.
I ask you today, do you have a pain that you are hiding from? Are you angry and don’t know why? Are you depressed and unable to move forward in life?
These are just a couple of the signs that you too, need heart healing. An encounter with God the Father to bring healing and restoration to your soul and mind.
Will you take a moment and press into the Father’s heart and ask, “Father, where do you want to heal me today?” And then, simply listen or see as He will show you exactly where He wants to bring fullness to your life again!
Breathe in His healing and you will be better equipped to breathe out His love to those around you! Our world needs what you have to give. Our world needs the love that God wants to place inside of your heart.